It all hurts.

im so tired. I'm exhausted. I don't want to do it anymore. I can't kill myself but I want to be dead. I don't want to leave the people I love, but I don't want to be here anymore. I'm so tired and numb and I can't feel anymore. It's not fun to live anymore. It's more tiring to live than anything else. I just want to feel normal again. I want to be okay with being alive. I just want some kind of peace and quiet. I just don't know what to do anymore