Isolating

I haven't been on here for a while because my tendency is to isolate myself and shut out the world when I am feeling down. I know what I need, but I don't know how to get it and I loose all motivation to try. I need a vision for the future, my future...and I don't have one except to dream about God's Heavenly Kindgom. Our world's system is so depressing...I feel like I was born at the wrong time...our whole system is based on greed and control. I perceive so much, yet feel helpless to do anything about it, except to pray. The battle is in my mind...why can't I just stay positive and be happy with the way things are? I desire a world where love is the driving force and faith and hope are a lifestyle. Forgive me God for my lack of faith. Help me in my unbelief. Help me to see through your eyes Jesus. Help us all.