isloated

i feel held a away from the world its like a bubble im in and i cant seem to pop it because they dont want me to leave but i cant stay inside anymore im tired of feeling like i cant do anything on my own and i cant do anything without someone holding my hand im not grown but im almost there if i dont see what the world is now i will be so confused later on i feel like im loosing my bestfriend because of this bubble i bearly see her hear from her and slowly i see her slipping away and us going back to strangers becuase i cant be the person she needs and maybe i cant because im not good enough i make mistakes that i cant come back and i contine to make them without thinking maybe she is better for just being my friend since im clearly not enough i feel this way because i been going through alot mentally i feel like my emotions are drowning me because i can bearly breath my parents not accepting for who i am makes this 10x worst because now i have to hide me because i hate looking like the mistake child the child that cant do anything right and is always in something with the same sex i want to change myself so they will be happy with me and be proud of me because i hate the way they look at me with so much discusit like im some sorta creature and it makes me feel little of myself i feel ashamed because im not what i should typically be