Is There Anybody Out There....

I Cant see too well, But Here Goes....The Eye Disese is called Retin Scenossis, which runs in my family, me, my brother, my grandsons   Mine however came on VERY Fast, I am Living My Life just like the Daryl Dodd Song...Is There Any Body Ouy THere who feels like ME?  I was a General Contractor for 35 yrs, but do to My Condition, my Wife had to Hire a contractor to remodel a bathroom in My daughters place. I Hate my Life just because I USED TO COULD..And now I know what a BURDIN I am here,  I WANT TO RUN AWAY...But How can I?  Next I Have NO SEX Drive, I even tried checking out porn, but no Help.  Next on My Shitty Life is I Have put on a Few Poundage do to my not getting Out.  Next I get no spiritual support, let me correct that, I chose NOT to get any Support, In fact there are a few members that I Really Can't Stand!!! I have 3 Daughters, 1 lives here in Texas with My Grandaughter, My 2nd Lives In Utah with my Grandson, AND NOW I Cry at night about my Oldest and Oldest Grandson,  Their was some Hard Feeling, Mostly with my wife and Daughter.   I Have not seen in 5 Years and with my Blindness I Will Never See Again...Now here is the Really Tough Thing....I Was a 60s and 70s Hippie, for Real! Man Did Me and My Friends Do Drugs and Alchol,sorry but They all are Dead! I Became an Addict and Alcholic for 20 + yrs. I Wanted To To Find an Out For my Shitty Life, I Have been Clean and sober for 32 Years,  But can that Last? I Need To Find My Daughter some where in Utah,   AnyBody? P.S. I was abused by my mother, and I still HATE Her. yup, PTSD...HOW BOUT A MAGIC PILL TO MAKE ITALL GO AWAY ?  So Now What, I have never been on these sights,I have been and still going to counsling, but it doesn't seem to help. Please Someone HELP !!! or just maybe I could help in return...My Friends,I Have None, But they used to call me   The "Dude", I Guess I Look Like Lebouski.P.S. I was helping a Drug Addict Who had almost a year of sobrity, 3 weeks ago "Perky" died of an OD, Think it will be a while before I Do That Again, TOO Painful! If you see me along Highway 290 walking,  Pleses Wave or Honk,  Honk would be MuCH Better....(Feed Your Head)