Is that help?

Strange. I'm still as low as in the morning. But I can feel that all this that happened today was the way to expose my lies. I could admit - in the office and in the presence of absolutely stranger - that I didn't tell about my problems.There is still one thing I have to tell about. I don't feel strength for that yet. First I have to settle one or two things. But I really think this will leave all lies behind me. Yes, I'm a bancrupt. Yes, I often don't do things I should.  Yes I lied in many ways and about many things, important and not. But I want to change and I WILL change. I pray for the strength and for just some more time.I didn't move out yet. Things already packed (well, mostly) but still in home. I don't know what is the end of this story. But if the end is without more lies, it will be better than what is now. Even if I lose my Wife. If there is any chance for me it is now. I can't make things worse. I have nothing to lose. What was important I have already lost and now I can only try to get it back.