Is it just me??

I really want to know why is it so hard for me to find a girl who is right for me? I always over think things like I am not good looking thats why nobody likes me, or maybe I have a bad attitude and people see how fustrated I am some times, but honestly I am a respectable guy I think. I am always out helping people in class, Or maybe is it my past drug problem...do people really hold that on someone for life? I mean I know I was a bad addict at one point but don't people deserve a second chance? I understand how no one can trust me anymore because I can't even trust myself, I realize I was a drug addict, but I have changed...for the better. I only smoke weed now and as of latley I haven't even been doing that a lot. I feel like I am healthier and happier than ever when it comes to my health and mind, but I don't understand why I can't make friends anymore. I have shut out all my old friends because they are still into drugs and they are severly heading down the wrong path and I just couldn't sit back and watch them fall, I told them that I was no longer interested in doing drugs anymore and they looked at me as though I was crazy. Like what I have choosen to do what so wrong and I actually felt a little hurt that they couldn't respect my desisions. So now I am all by myself, have been for quite sometime now. All I do is train for football and track all the time and do all my schoolwork like I never have before I swear I turned over a new leaf and I really just want people to see that. I have come to the conclusion that I can't find a decent girlfriend because of they way I look or dress. I am just so sick of being alone I want someone there who can just understand with me. Is so hard sometimes but I just look outside my window at the thunderstroms and hope things get better soon, but my heart still hurts right now :/

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I just looked through your pictures and you look nice. I don\'t know why but when I had no one I ended up becoming more self confident. Maybe that has to happen to you. I\'m sure you\'ll find a girl who will recolonize your accomplishments.
AdamTyler
AdamTyler

Awww thanks!! But looking nice isn\'t always the answer everyone looks nice it\'s looking good that needs to happen. I sure hope so I am tired of being lonely!!!!
Kendie94
Kendie94

Tyler if people can\'t see who you are inside, then you don\'t want to be in a relationship with those people. Trust me, You are extremely good looking, very funny, and super sweet and in the future that is going to really get you far. I truely believe any girl who falls into your arms is a very lucky girl.
But, I think people are still distancing themselves from you because they are still questioning if you have actually changed or if your just more secretive about it. And so give it time and the WILL realize that you HAVE changed! If you ever need to talk I\'m on everyday!
deleted_user
deleted_user

you are a good person.. i know this by talking to you for one night. I mean you turned me right around! I was down for a long time but then you talked to me and all my troubles went away. I know sooner or a later you will find that perfect someone. and when you do you will know it. People turn you down because they dont know how to react to someone who is as open as you are will admit your problems. just hang in there. you will find her before you know it.
AdamTyler
AdamTyler

All of you are so sweet!! Kendra!! that was the nicest thing anyone has said to meeee!!! I love all of ya! and I am definatly behind and will support you all. I am starting to me how many people actually care about me. I just need to plug it into the real world. You guys are sooo awesome all of you thanks so much!! :) These messages made my day I can\'t wipe this smile of my face no matter what happens. :D THANKS!!
deleted_user
deleted_user

You will find a nice girl. You are cute, nice, sensitive, and caring. It\'s good that you are being selective. So you don\'t get into anything and then come to find out she\'s no good for you. I have found that when I was \"on the hunt\" all I could find was dudds. It was when I least expected it that I found love in the past. When I wasn\'t trying... you are destined for greatness. And you\'ll find your match sooner than later.