Interesting weekend...

It's been an interesting weekend ... actually it's been an interesting couple of weeks.  I don't feel numb anymore, which is good, but I also don't seem to get angry at all anymore.  I just accept that whatever happened as having happened and move on.   I've experienced some pretty big inconvieniences lately ... but not even a blip of anger ... it's weird.  For all intents and purposes I lost a $140,000 sale at work.  Nothing.  My car was broken into (window smashed) and property stolen.  Nothing.  Saturday I was bitten five times by a dog.  Three times on the right calf, once on the left calf and once on my right hand.  Nothing ... except actually feeling sadness for the dog, it was so afraid, so it acted hyper-aggressively. Then yesterday I lost all of the data on my computer's hard drive.  That's all of my photos, iTunes library, four years of financial records, personal journals and a host of other files ... all gone.  Nothing.  No anger ... no rage ... no questioning why.  It is very strange.  I know it's not normal but, at the same time, I don't feel like being angry or sad or depressed or questioning.  I do wonder why all of this stuff is happening back to back to back ... am I being tested in some way or is this just dumb luck?  I'm not sure.   What I don't want to do is go back to work.  Today is a day off and I would love to never have to go back to work again.  It's oppressive and boring.  I dislike it.  I dislike the routine, the importance placed on money and competition and winning.  I dislike the fact that I do, in essence, nothing all day yet I feel exhausted by the end of the day.  It's not a good, physical, exhaustion, but a mental one.  I want my mind to be fresh and vibrant ... not dull from stress.