Interesting Reaction

So it is a Sunday afternoon and I made the decision that I was not going to do chores, cook, cut the grass or get off the couch.  Have not had one of these days in a while.  I felt like I deserved it.  As the day goes on, I start flipping channels and found myself watching the Disney Channel, kind of weird, 39 year old single dad, home alone, watching the Disney Channel.  One of my favorite kids movies of all time is on, Lilo and Stitch.  As I am watching this movie, certain lines in the movie and scenes, bring me to tears.  When the sister starts talking about how she felt that she has failed Lilo and that sometimes that we need to accept the fact that we have made mistakes and we need to move on and deal with the consequences of our actions.  I was overwhelmed by the feeling that the last 2 years of my life since my wife cheated on me and let me and my family, that I have failed myself.  I need to get my life back and that I have learned that being alone is not what I want and it is not making me happy.  I want to have a woman in my life that will love me, appreciate me and want to spend the rest of her life with me.  I feel like I have a few women that would do that but I am very afraid of being crushed and having my heart broken again.  I am not sure if I could live through that again.  As I continued to watch the movie, the overall theme of family made me feel like a major part of my life has been missing and it is the love from another.  I know that I have the love of my children and my family but it is not the same as the love from a woman.  I have realized after two years, this is not something that I need, it is something that I want in my life.  So after the tears subsided, I began to feel that I need to start doing things to move towards this goal.  To move towards being completely happy again.  To find that love that I want and so deserve.  What are the chances that a kids movie could have such a profound emotional reaction.  Part of me says " you are a man, stop crying like a baby" and the other part of me says "listen to your heart and follow it.
 
What I also realized was that I do not have a friend that I can have these conversations with!  Maybe when I find that friend, I will find that love, I will find that woman to make my heart whole again!!
 
Thanks Lilo and Stitch!!