Insomniac!!!!

  I don't know why I haven't been able to sleep properly for the last two weeks! I feel ok, I get things done on time, so I don't know why I can't sleep! It's driving me nuts!! I can't go to bed without a sleeping pill. But I feel so groggy and forgetful the next day, so it really is a waste to take the pill when I'd feel like that anyway without sleep. Plus I'm in school and I can't afford to feel like this for too long!!   I have been feeling depressed at times. Maybe that's what it is...In all honesty, I feel like I can't accomplish what I've always wanted to do all my life because physically my body probably can't take it. It sucks when the most important thing that you've always wanted to do can't be done because of your physical capabilities. I don't know. People say it's not too late, but in reality, I think it is...It's like what I've always wanted to do is finally coming to my senses, but now it's too late! I feel like that's what would make me feel most accomplished and fulfilled...I try to find other hobbies or other kinds of goals to set, but nothing feels as fulfilling as what I truely wanted to do all my life, but now that opportunity has passed so now I'm sad. Trying not to be, but I am..maybe that's why I can't sleep..