inner fight--not recent

Friday night I felt scared and aloneAnd none of my friends would answer the phoneI tried to fight the urge to cutBut to all reason my mind was shut  I sliced my back, leg, and chestI guess I really failed this testI cut my shoulder, stomach, and armThen my side I did harm  I bled and bled for a whileBut it never made me smileI did it deeper than beforeI just kept wanting more and more  I scared myself with how I thoughtThen my urge I finally foughtI was so exhausted from the fightI shut my eyes and slept all night  Now I want to change you seeThis experience really scared meMy whole body aches all dayBut for my crime I now must pay