indecisive

Really late start, not really feeling well yesterday was good me and my wife talked like usual with our late night stuff, we are trying to work hard for communication but there are still things cause I can't talk about like some stuff that really saddens me or upsets me that she has been through directly caused by me or indirectly. So it is difficult but taking step at a time, not sure what we are doing to today perhaps watching movie with family or something. Ofcourse I have to work hard and try not to lie today, I got couple things I need to work on find out about my program and pay for my wife classes. Also I still have not figured out exactly what to do in life classes well be staying soon and I'm really indecisive what is best option. I can't really ask my wife for help well every time I try to do something I don't and I would lie like not goto class and go hang out at friends house. She is spruce but I'm sure she is tired of trying to help and then I don't do anything time to start searching more.