Incredibly peaceful

I wasn't sure what to expect as last time a similar situation presented was the time of cremation, when the pain was intensively penetrating throughout my whole body. Today I placed my wife's ashes in cemetery. I went to the funeral agency, putting the ashes into an urn, and holding the urn in a 30-minute ride to the cemetery, placing it in a niche, seeing it sealed, and then I cited Novena.
I thought I should get more emotional and I sensed some people from the agency and cemetery expected that (they gingerly looked at me in every step of the way). I felt so close to her, but it was not her body, even if I did feel warm while holding the urn. When you hold something lost so dear so close, you are supposed to feel sad. I felt sad when the van passed through some places we used to go and tears were in my eyes, but then came the sense of peace. I am still trying to make sense of this---maybe my inner strength, the environment of a quiet mountain area, or even the chirping of the birds? --- that the dominant feeling was not sadness, but peace?! This was just incredible.