In the morning brighter...though still stressed

so yesterday was an awful day. the kind of lethargy and irritability that sometimes keeps me huddled in bed all day was at full strength. it scared me a little because i remember feeling that way a lot before i was hospitalised.  i took my meds an retired to bed early even though we had guests. i'm sure they thought me quite rude or some kind a freak.  i felt even worse when my sister made fun of how i was feeling and announced to the room to not mind me i was grumpy and sick (in a sing song voice) . i hate that she trivialises what i'm going through. when she's feeling ill (hungover, or cold, or cramps) she expects everyone to be respectful and supportive. when it's me she's more callous and demanding. and still expects me to run errands and be a chaufeur and whatever because she doesn't have a license (unless she wants to play "grown woman" and impress someone).  last night one of our guests wanted beer so she sent our little brother to come get my keys. the store is just down the street butif she got pulled over it's a $600-1500 ticket. i dragged myself up and said i'd drive and she huffed and acted the high queen about it because "it's just down the street. i'm not going to get arrested for going 30mph down the street." she wanted to show off that she could drive in front of the guests. it had nothing to do with me or how i was feeling. it was just one more thing to push me into misery. of course when her boyfriend called for a ride from work then she called me on my cell phone (couldn't be bothered to walk up 1 flight of stairs to my room) to come pick him up because she was having fun and entertaining, even though she could have asked one of her friends to go get him knowing i was feeling bad.  The school stuff is also stressing me out. i had a period of aphasia yesterday and started stuttering afterwards-bad sign of anxiety attack. i felt so weak and drained and visions of hospital kept dancing at the forfront of my mind.  i feel a bit better today. more stable in my mood and energy level, though still a bit tired. going to get back to room cleaning today. and more calls for school stuff. i was accepted at one campus but taking classes at another but the classes campus is saying i have to reapply there. my financial aid is all screwy and may or may not be disbursed in time to secure my registration for classes.  i need the financial aid refund to purchase a car since the commute to school is 1 1/2 hrs and i can't use my sister's boyfriend's truck which has been our primary transportation since we moved here. i'm renting a car for the first week of school and hoping hat i'll be able to purchase a car cheaply during that week that isn't a major gas guzzler.  i also have to figure out how to get my little brother's things from my other brother's house (3 hrs away) because originally he was going to stay there until he finished high school, but my other brother and his slacker wife were too busy instructing him to be a babysitter for their two boys instead of getting him ready for school. the financial burden of another person in this house (especially one who eats as much as he does--do 17yr olds have bottomless pits for stomachs or what?) has been intense and we still need to buy him furniture and school supplies and things. it's a mess and one more thing for me to stress about.  still because my mood is better today it doesn't feel so insurmountable as it did yesterday.