In the dumps
I was doing so good - I was feeling happy, moving on but this past few days have been rough. Can't stop thinking about him, I mean day and night - his thoughts on my mind all daaayyyyyyy!!!!!!! I caught myself crying in the shower last night. I feel so lonely and even though I'm always smiling I feel broken inside. I know I deserve better, I deserve somebody to be somebody's priority not an option. I feel upset at myself for thinking about him, upset at me for not been able to forget, upset at me for fighting the urge to contact him. I'm fighting myself everyday and its exhausting!
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I\'m so sorry. :( I know exactly how you feel. I wish I had the answers for us. I wish I knew how to solve this... or at least find things to make us feel better. I don\'t. :(
It was my birthday yesterday and even though he contacted me, he STILL managed to make me feel like crap. I was dumb and responded to him. I don\'t know why I keep doing that. I ALWAYS get hurt. Have you been good at NC so far?
Well it doesn\'t matter a birthday is a birthday so Happy Blated Bday - is a good day to be alive!!!
I suck at NC!! Boo to me!!! I\'m always the one that texts :(
He always responds but he never initiates contact or tries to see me - he\'s just been polite. I haven\'t talk to him in a while but I know I will - question is when,.
:( I\'m sorry. It sucks to feel like they have all the power. That\'s how he made me feel yesterday... it\'s like whenever HE wants to contact me, I always respond. And then when I respond, he gets to end contact again because he feels like it. UGHHHH! It\'s not fair. Don\'t you want to feel like you have the power, not him? I think that\'s why we have to remind ourselves to stay NC. Because it\'s sooooo hard to move on when we\'re still talking/texting them.
me too!!!! I always respond and quick - I don\'t even wait. It feels worse when I text and he doesn\'t responds right away or he does real cold or just like your man he just ends the conversation or leaves it in limbo. Urgh!! I tried so hard but is exhausting fighting with myself.
I always iniate contact too and get the usual responses.......yes, or ok. nothing personal, nothing about me and my life. He is polite and always responds but I know this isn\'t the way it is supposed to be in a relationship. We deserve better, we deserve more, we deserve to be their priority. I think the problem is they know we will contact them so they just wait for that to happen. We all know that sick feeling we get after texting (we shouldn\'t have done that, I hope he responds) and then the wait..........NC really is the best way to move forward, for our own sakes. They could really care less if we contact them, they have moved on, at least in my case. Hugs and happy late birthday Wyn!
Hearing you guys makes me feel better - I\'m not the only one that feels this way or going through this - it gives me some solace knowing I\'m not alone.
Yougo - my guy does the same, always polite but nothing personal and I know that feeling after texting! It\'s not outlook where you can recall a message and I wait always hoping it would be different. I don\'t know why I hope - if he wanted to talk to me or see me he would ask which he doesn\'t anymore. Why do we hold on to that hope?
I don\'t know why we hold on. I broke contact just this week asking if he wanted some roof tar that I had bought. He said sure and now it\'s up to me to keep contacting him to see when he\'ll be home. Why did I do that???? I should have just taken the darn stuff back to the store, BUT always looking for an \"innocent\" reason to contact him I did. I just want to see and be with him, pathetic and my own fault. I will never totally heal while hanging onto the \"hope\" that he\'ll wake up and miss me and beg to come back, ain\'t going to happen, I know that. And you are right, IF they wanted to see us or talk to us, they would but they don\'t, how come I don\'t get it?????