In the Darkness
Nights used to be so restful and full. Holding one another as we lay down, sharing our dreams and desires with each other. Now they are so long, quiet and still. I lay here before I close my eyes wishing things were back like they used to be for a day. The middle of the night seems to be when I get so emotional. I reach for the comfort of her laying beside me to only find a cold and empty place that matches my soul. My only recourse is praying for God to give me strength for this day... the night fades and I drift off once again dreaming the same nightmare that permeates my life.
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That was so sad and beautiful. Believe me I understand exactly what you are saying. I go to sleep every night now away from him wondering why this has happened, how he could destroy us this way and if I sleep at all it\'s nightmares about how he doesn\'t want or love me anymore and then I wake up each morning and feel the same pain once more. However, after a month now and knowing the truth about how far he\'s gone and that the damage between us is now permanent I am gradually finding that I don\'t cry every night and every morning and my sleep is not as permeated with torture. I hope this can happen for you too. Take care friend.
I agree with everything dragonlady13 said. In time the nightmares go away and in time you\'ll get used to sleeping without her. I was where you\'re at a few months ago. It was painful but it does get better.