In my "dreams"
I tried to get Peanut to come to me in my dreams last night; I have so many unanswered questions for her. I don’t know if she isn’t ready, I wasn’t ready or the lack of sleep gave little opportunity for it to happen. I wish I was like one of those mediums who could communicate with those who passed, animals and humans. I think maybe that would ease some pain because I knew that I could still see and hear her. The house still is so quiet and we haven’t made it to the family room to watch tv yet and I still haven’t made dinner yet. I need to start because the cost of eating out is going to get too much even fast food so tonight Im going to try to make something simple and just not eat in the family room area where we ate. I talk to peanut still daily and I hope she comes to me in dream soon.
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I don\'t think it\'s something you can force. I wasn\'t able to see Lady in my dreams (or feel her presence) until I was able to let go of the guilt from the grief I was experiencing. I also read on one of the pet psychic\'s sites that they wait for a few weeks after a pet passed before they try to contact them. I\'ve been tempted to contact one, but not sure I could handle it.
As far as eating in the family room, perhaps you could think of it as honoring Peanut by visiting one of the special places you shared. It may be in that room that you will feel her presence. You may break down initially, but will be glad you did it. I was afraid to come back to the condo as that is where it was just me and Lady, but I got past it.
btw: I never moved Lady\'s beds or pillows. It\'s like part of her is still there. Her food and meds and some of her sweaters have been donated. I\'m now down south in the condo where my sister moved everything out of site and it feels very empty here.
Allow yourself time to be sad, but try to get past her death and think of the love you shared and how much richer she made your life. I hope you can find some relief soon.
Hugs
Nancy xoxo
i think your dream of peanut will come in time,its not something that can be forced,i still go to bed wishing for a dream visit,i had 1 at the start but havent since,just mixed up dreams mostly.i want 1 with me and clay hugging and happy!! eating out all the time is costly,just take it 1 step at a time,like you said make something simple(my something simple would be an ommelette)!! and just eat it in a different room,just until you think you can face it,it will happen in time.its all still so raw for you,but we have all to face doing things without our babies and its so hard,i still havent faced the park thats right on my doorstep,it was me and clays place we always went together everyday....i will do it soon.hope you feel a little better soon,hugs xx
I think if i contacted a pet medium I would want to know where peanut is right now; does she spend time in our home? My husband thinks since she is free maybe she goes to work with him or I and sees what we do all day. I would ask her if she was happy the 6 years we were together. I would ask her if she was sick a long time or if it was sudden and pain free. I would want to know if she was happy now and what she is thinking or feeling. I cant even quantify how much I miss that tiny 98 gram bird but Its surely more than all the stars in the sky!
You will have your dream SadEyes1979. Not on your timetable though. Relax and release. It will come when you least expect it. I am thankful that I had one last night but it wasn\'t on my mind when I went to bed. It just happened. I\'m still praying for your strength and for peace to come to you.