In Love

To be in love is the greatest feeling I have ever had. I was in love for a very long time with one person who just seemed to make everything right. Even now he makes me feel so secure. I see him all the time and I can still see us together. What I cannot see is me getting over him. Here I go, with the same story. Although, I feel a little stronger these days. Maybe because my medication was increased? I try to cry but I can't. Some emotions have numbed. It's scary but I've been down this road. . .
Lately I've been thinking on how it would be when my special someone finds himself a special someone. I can imagine the devastation, maybe then I will be able to cry. I can ask myself the endless questions: why won't he see something in me? why can't there be a chance for us? aren't we meant to be? And it goes on and on.
I'm guessing it's time to move on. There's another person who once was in love with me. He's a good friend...a good man. We only email since he lives in another town. But I have this desire to see him and spend time with him. By now I'm sure he's over me, but I've really been thinking of him.
So confused now . . .
:/