In flux

Sometimes when I struggle to clear my head writing helps. Sometimes it's Poetry. Sometimes it's short stories. The themes vary but they are full of subtext that helps me simplify the clutter in my heaD. I've written a lot today so I won't share it all but just enough to show where I'm at. I have a meeting with a counselor tomorrow who is going to help talk me through pressing charges and will help set me up with an attorney. I'm on edge and I'm afraid. I don't want to rush things and rush a decision I just want things done right. I'm afraid to upset status quo. I'm afraid the family that means so much to me may not support me in pressing charges and how my relationship with them will change. I've never. Been so afraid in my life.