IN DISBELIEF

Wow is all I can say... Yesterday my fiance came home finally from the hospital of course the furbabies & I are happy campers...  He had told me when I had went up to pick him up from the hospital that he hadnt heard from his best friend in two days..  He was trying to call him all morning yesterday & his friend never answered the phone or answered his text message...  That simply wasnt like his friend not to answer or even to call my fiance back if he missed his calls....  The last time my fiance had talked to his friend was thursday when his friend was up at the hospital to visit him....  They talked daily....  The conclusion that we had come up with was either his friends cell phone had broke and he was in the process of getting a new one or that he lost his phone....  I had even texted his friend & I didnt get a response....  Well last evening my fiance asked me do u think I should call the police in the town where his friend lived in & ask him to do a welfare check??  I said yes it wouldnt hurt...  Well he did they said that they would go check on his friend and either they themselves (the police) call him back or have his friend get a hold of him..  The police officer who checked on his friend said there wasnt any answer but his door was unlocked..  My fiance told the officer thats not like him to have his door unlocked is there a way that he can go in to check on him because his friend has a seizure disorder....  The officer said that they just cant go in but he'll call his boss to see what they can do....  Well in the meantime my fiance had called his friends pastor because he didnt have his friends parents phone number to call them to see what was going on....  He did get to talk to his friends pastor well the pastor had the deacon of the church which was another friend of my fiances friend so the deacon went to where the friend lived and saw that the police were still outside the friends residence he talked with the officer(s) and found out that my fiance's friend was found dead in his apt.....  The friends pastor came over to our place to inform us what had happened....  Im in disbelief as well as my fiance we just cant wrap our heads around this....  The friend was only 40 yrs old I know that death has no age limit & our GOD will call us home at any given time that we just dont know when thatll be but not to know why or how this happened because of the fact that the only health issue of our friend that we were aware of was a seizure disorder...  The pastor told us that if he found out anything he would give my fiance a call.....  Had a panic attack about an hr ago think this was the trigger of it but not sure because I was worrying about a few other things as well....  Its tough to go through anxiety depression and occassional panic attacks.........  I feel bad for the friends family as his parents were divorced and both lived about 45 mins away in opposite directions...  I was telling my fiance that the reason why when he goes into the hospital I get upset depressed and my anxiety are at high levels are not only because Im worried about him but subconciously I worry about if something would happen to me & no one would find me....  Which I know I shouldnt worry about those things as much because I have no control over