In disbelief.
I am in disbelief that my wife Adriana is not here. I just cannot imagine a life without her. I know she was saved and with God now in Heaven and I could surely not wish her back in what she was going through. I wish we had a cure to Breast Cancer as it affects so many people and their families. I have just about given up but I promised her in her last days God would take care of and so I would be ok so I cannot lie. I spent Valentine's day at the GraveSite placing some beautiful tributes and decorations around her/my grave site and prayed with Grandma and had a talk with Adriana to let her know she is always in my heart and NEVER forgotten.
-It has been hell. If I give up and quit I will die and she would not want that. How am I supposed to feel and act? After losing a Mom, Dad, now a Wife I am just tired of going to the Cemetery. When bad thoughts creep up I try to replace them with good ones. The pain is unimaginable. I know God is in charge but many times I just wish I were with her now. I cry because of what she endured. Still I know she has large wings in heaven as God's "Most Precious Angel". I have to dedicate my life to help others especially with Breast Cancer after I get myself straight, that way Adriana's legacy can live on through me to make a difference in her wonderful STRENGTH/FAITH/LOVE.
Everything in the home reminds me of her and I miss her.
I will never get over this just learn one day to live with this pain. I am thankful to God for what he has bloessed me and Adriana with though as many are less fortunate.
Michael
May God Bless you.
-It has been hell. If I give up and quit I will die and she would not want that. How am I supposed to feel and act? After losing a Mom, Dad, now a Wife I am just tired of going to the Cemetery. When bad thoughts creep up I try to replace them with good ones. The pain is unimaginable. I know God is in charge but many times I just wish I were with her now. I cry because of what she endured. Still I know she has large wings in heaven as God's "Most Precious Angel". I have to dedicate my life to help others especially with Breast Cancer after I get myself straight, that way Adriana's legacy can live on through me to make a difference in her wonderful STRENGTH/FAITH/LOVE.
Everything in the home reminds me of her and I miss her.
I will never get over this just learn one day to live with this pain. I am thankful to God for what he has bloessed me and Adriana with though as many are less fortunate.
Michael
May God Bless you.
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