In a world of my own...

Well.... apartment hunting is over. I am successfully moved into my new place with the kitty. I enjoy it somewhat, but there are moments where I'm lonely with no one to talk to. I know that will be different when I get internet back installed. Then I can go back to crafting and watching Netflix to occupy my time. I am heartened and yet scared out of my mind at the idea of being fully dependent on myself. But I know I can do it and do what it takes to make sure I am successful. Yes my apartment isn't exactly an A+ sort of unit, but it's mine and no one can tell me anything about it. Most contact with the stbx is cut off. The bills we still have together are getting changed and then I won't have to contact him until it comes time for us to file for the divorce. The process of filing scares me but I'm ready to be out from under this relationship and mostly I want my name back. I don't like seeing his last name following mine around anymore. I almost feel like it's a slave name now.
I have been so blessed though. My coworkers and friends have been so supportive of me in this time. I never knew I was surrounded by so many caring and kind individuals and I just hope that if the time ever comes where they need someone that I can be there for them too. I  won't let myself be afraid. I won't allow it. I have no choice but to stand up and prove that I need no one but God to keep me standing.
If I could be more stable in my emotions I could probably celebrate this a little more. The 26th will be my 26th birthday and I'm planning a small get together for a birthday/housewarming party... I'm excited to see what others will think of my progress. I've had so many changes in as little as 6 months that I'm frightened to realize just exactly what I'm capable of. I know I'm doing better than my stbx and I'm ashamed that I take pleasure in realizing this. But then again I know I've always been the strong one.... no matter what he said.