In a deep hole.

Just can't seem to get myself out of this hole I seem to be in. Feel so useless. Watch Debbie go to work every morning while I just set here. Just am so tired of not being able to do anything. I know that there are so many people that are so much worse off. Somehow this just doesn't seem to make any difference anymore. I just feel like such a burden to her. She would be better off with the insurance money. If God would just come and take me home. I can't do it myself because the insurance would not pay up. Just have to weight for the time that God decides to come and get me. Just hope it is soon. Ready to go now. I know that I need to get out of this mood but I just can't seem to. Feel like I am sliding down a long ramp to nowhere.