In a Daze but grateful

Well, today I cancelled/closed more credit cards. I did try yesterday to make some payment arrangements with some companies with no success. Today I ran some errands and checked in with my job and saw my boss it was ok but feel very uncertain about my overall long term thing. I was able to meet with a very special online friend in person and she turned out to be a very nice genuine real person. While it was very nice to see her in person I also realize that I need more supports and also more of a spiritual support (church etc). I feel
Like I have so many things ganging over my head and it's literally driving me into deeper depression. I am trying hard to. " push myself" so I can take financial responsibility and have more peace and hopefully " happiness" in my life. I am praying to God each day