In a bad way

I am very depressed, angry and in terrible pain could their be some one who can help me please, I have a birthday on Tuesday and that isn't helping,y sugars are out of wack with the pain, I am angry with every one and just plan sad
I should be happy I have a grandbaby coming in November, which I am a first time nanny
I feel I have lost my faith, don't go to church any more, just becoming a horrible person in my self
I had a friend call around the other day a priest, and he more or less told me how negative I was and how I live in my own world.
God if only he knew how I was feeling, I can see why people take their own life.
please pray for me