Improving Life
It's been ages since I wrote anything in here. Life seemed to be marking the spot for ages but lately I have been feeling better. Wow! I still feel a bit dire first thing but now I just accept that I do and that it evaporates pretty soon.
Work is going well, as long as I don't imagine myself never leaving....just a day at a time - just like they say. I enjoy talking to people and being as friendly and efficient as 5 years' experience has trained me to do.
Ivan and i are getting along well-at least I think so-hope he does too! Nearly 2 years.
A lot of my recovery is down to him and the kindness and stability and humour that is who he is.
Bryan gave me a card reading today and for the first time acknowledged that some of us are readers and/or listeners. I can't write and I can't be bothered-I have no reason to. Just want to be the natural me. Just doing what i do-being me.
As far as brother Simon brother goes-I give up- we'll never be natural and friendly with each other. So I'm letting him go. I won't write or ring or email or send cards or gifts. He's never really liked me and I find him cold and lazy. I've let this relationship damage me enough. It's obviously time to part. Haven't heard from Claudia or Jay lately-never mind. Nick wrote today but said if i want to help at next show I'll have to be more confident and assured or words to that effect. Like i can turn it on! I don't know much about his products so how can i believe in them and speak from the heart?
Have been let go from Mental Health Services back to my GP. Graduation! I do feel pretty well, I think-and am interested to see where it's going. Imperceptible change day by day-but when I look back I can see how much my mood has lifted.
Spring is coming-ducks come running when they see me with my bread going "Here duck, duck, duck" kowhais are out, warmth in the sun-Ivan planted the hanging baskets-I need to spend time in Nature and gardening is on the agenda for tomorrow.
Even a 7 year episode of ups and downs can start to diminish and I can be normal again. It's on the cards.
Work is going well, as long as I don't imagine myself never leaving....just a day at a time - just like they say. I enjoy talking to people and being as friendly and efficient as 5 years' experience has trained me to do.
Ivan and i are getting along well-at least I think so-hope he does too! Nearly 2 years.
A lot of my recovery is down to him and the kindness and stability and humour that is who he is.
Bryan gave me a card reading today and for the first time acknowledged that some of us are readers and/or listeners. I can't write and I can't be bothered-I have no reason to. Just want to be the natural me. Just doing what i do-being me.
As far as brother Simon brother goes-I give up- we'll never be natural and friendly with each other. So I'm letting him go. I won't write or ring or email or send cards or gifts. He's never really liked me and I find him cold and lazy. I've let this relationship damage me enough. It's obviously time to part. Haven't heard from Claudia or Jay lately-never mind. Nick wrote today but said if i want to help at next show I'll have to be more confident and assured or words to that effect. Like i can turn it on! I don't know much about his products so how can i believe in them and speak from the heart?
Have been let go from Mental Health Services back to my GP. Graduation! I do feel pretty well, I think-and am interested to see where it's going. Imperceptible change day by day-but when I look back I can see how much my mood has lifted.
Spring is coming-ducks come running when they see me with my bread going "Here duck, duck, duck" kowhais are out, warmth in the sun-Ivan planted the hanging baskets-I need to spend time in Nature and gardening is on the agenda for tomorrow.
Even a 7 year episode of ups and downs can start to diminish and I can be normal again. It's on the cards.
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