important insights on life and death

Karma In my eyes is cause and effect that means everything happens for a reason. I guess karma did have a lot to do with my wifes death because she wouldn't comply to a healthier diet that is the cause. The effect was death. I don't feel that it was fair to me because their was nothing I could do to change her diet. I tried for 2 years to get her to change her diet but I failed, I became a difunctional mess, we lost our child and then she died. I skipped a whole of other sad things but that is basically what happened. Now that I wrote it out karma does make sense to me. I tried to help her but I failed. No one could help her I guess loss can be related to karma. Life gave me an impossible task not karma. but there was cause and effect. I don't blame myself for her death and I don't blame myself for falling in love with her. The only thing that could of changed anything is not to have met her. I am glad I met her, I am glad I married her, and I am glad we had a child.     I was tired and ranting when I posted yesterday. I went off my night meds the night before last they help me sleep and see things more clearly the next day, I guess my posts yesterday are proof of it. "