im so so sad today

im so depressed today,i brke down and text him this morning and he rang me but he was awful to me.he said to stop contacting him as i am not letting us get over this,i cried so much on the phone but he just said to stop making him feel guilty.why is it all my fault when i never asked for any of this and i cant help but still love him.oh i wish i didnt it would be so much easier.