IM LONLEY

I JUST STARTED A NEW RELATIONSHIP AND THIS IS THE FIRST DAY OF HIM NOT BEING HERE TO WAKE UP WITH ME AND ITS SO WIERD TO NOT HAVE HIM HERE NEXT TO ME TO WAKE UP TO HOLDING ME OR SOMETHING. HE HAD TO LEAVE AND GO TAKE CARE OF SOME BUSINESS FOR A FEW DAYS. I MISS HIM SO FREAKIN MUCH AND HE JUST LEFT YESTERDAY. I AM PRAYING THAT THIS RELATIONSHIP WORKS AND OUTSTANDS ALL THE DRAMA THAT IS GOING ON IN MY MIND. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH THAT ITS KILLING ME TO EVEN THINK OF HIM CHEATING ON ME OR DOING SOMETHIGN HE KNOW'S HE SHOULDN'T DO. I HAVEN'T BEEN IN A RELATIONSHIP IN ALMOST 8 YEARS. SO I HAVE TO GET USE OF BEING INVOLVED WITH SOMEONE TO A POINT OF HIM BEING AROUND ME A LOT. ALL I KNOW IS I LOVE HIM AND I WANT TO MAKE A FAMILY WITH HIM AND HAVE KIDS WITH HIM AND JUST BE HAPPY. I FEAR HEARTBREAK I DONT' KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THAT..