im here, not expecting this site to do me any good

so been searching google for sensitive people support groups and not getting much in results for suppotr groups but did see one on here so joined it, im not getting my hopes up about being on here doing anything for me, dosent matter, i know im just an unwanted unwelcome kind of a person. well i want to continue on but i know im just going to end up make myself seem bad or will just end up rambling on making no sence whatsoever. i dont want to be the bad guy, but i am autistic (mentially imparred) so dont have a choice, i know im a good hearted person but well um on the outside im a total grouch(have life to thank for that) and so labled and judged with out even givin a chance to see who i actually am on the inside and so i just was not meant to have friends get to meet like minded people and such which i wish i could and want to, i just wish there was somkind of online friendship site for me but i know there is not and i know that cause i spent a lot of time looking for them and joining a few of them and long story short i just didnt and could not belong. sorry i know i seem pretty negitive thats cause i am a verry negitive person (again, life to thank for that) well i think i have rambled and ranted on enouf, i wish i could one of these days actually could change my situation for the better but time and time again (just like rite now) just spend my effort my time my energy and in the end nothing happens or changes for me.