im drowning in my own ocean of emotions

everything just piling up im angry frustrated sad and i feel ths wahy becase it seem liek my hopes and drems  dissapeard the time i herd i was dyslexic sence then thing gone down hill in my ablity to do such things that would apply in a shcool enviorment  when i try counting i keep accidnelty skipping numbers or some times on a rare occasion forgetting what comes next 
and aslo i cant tell 6 or9 appart becase they look the same to me 
i cant read to good  i get dizzy wile expose too long to letters or numbers and i stuter when in a negitive mood  of any sort 
furthere more i fee like my live is empty  not fullfilling anything id like to d becase of budget or  learning trobble preventing me from even able to do any of that 
wich often leves me all the more down becase that basicly traps me in my home becase  i got no place to go to  for fun nor no means of trasnopration to get there 
ive been so down latly  i been impulsivly eating accisivly  aslo it seems like crickets started up chirping so  im gonna have alot more of hard days
so far as is im alredy probly gonna go on day 3 for a hard day  all in a row   thats nuts one one should even have 3 days in a row thats hard
i feel like aslo theres no point in gasping for air in myocean of emotional  trobbles becase theres not much i can doo  till i can get the root of all my problems  out of the way  wich dont seem likly any time soon