im dead.

i feel like i am no use.
no matter how hard i try, im just another person. 
nothing sets me out from the rest. 
actually, that would be more ideal then this situation. 
at least then i would be part of something. 
but im not. im just there. not part of any group. 
no one notices me, no one cares. 
and in a way thats good. i dont have anyone to let down. 
but in a way, i want someone that i can let down, cause that means they actually care at least a little bit about me. 
im done feeling like shit. feeling sorry for myself, just sitting here in my own tears. 
not gonna happen anymore.
i am going to use all the hatred i have and turn it into a positive. 
at least then it will be productive. 
sigh. my life is a failure. 
no, its not, its just not as successful as i want it to be. 
thats all.