I'm back

Hey y'all I was once on here until about 9 years ago. Wanting to get back into figuring out what I should do. A little of where I came from. 

My parents were young when they had me and decided to wait to have more kids. My mom had me while she was still in high school and actually finished on time after i was born. My dad went through mechanic school and my mom worked at a resteraunt. When I was 6 my mom was coming home from work around midnight or before and was hit by a drunk driver at full speed. My mom died instantly. From there my dad raised me and it was great for that part. 

There was a neighbor girl that annoyed the fuck out of me all the time. She acted weird and was always wanting to play with me. She seemed creepy with the whole saying I'm cute and wanting to spend every second of her time with me. Fast forwarding, we went out as kids did at like 12 and 10, I had my first kiss with her and we became good friends. Later after being an actual couple I found out her dad sexually abused her for a couple years. Made her give him oral and was very mean about it. This is where it fell apart. 

I was on DS at that time and someone I was talking to here said to try to get her on here. A couple months later she joined. This guy who I don't remember his account name basically got us to do a lot of stuff we shouldn't. He basically made me take advantage of my best friend at the time. In reality, it seemed normal until..... my dad started seeing her mom. They both didn't have much of a social life and talked to each other more than anyone else because me and my gf at the time were always together. Worst situation happened. It was just a fling for a while untill her mom got pregnant. Then they got married, then they had my brother who I think is about to turn 10 in September. 

I met a lady on here that lived in the city I did and we talked a lot. I mean a lot. In fact I lost my V card to her one night. She was kinda messed up but she was fucking hot. At that time she was an adult and I was 15 maybe 14 when it happened. She lived a childhood of violence and extreme sexual abuse. Her sister was in on all that as well. I got myself in so much trouble with sex I should be locked up for life. I've had sex with possibly over 100 females. I'm saying that because they all weren't women. 

Ive been addicted to sex, porn, alcohol and even drugs. Thats when i knew i had a problem. When I turned 18 I left. Keep in mind I left DS when I was 15. I moved to Chicago untill I found out that wasn't the place for me. Tulsa, Austin, then Nashville and now I'm where I'm at now. I'm content here and comfortable. I would like to know what to do or where to go in life. I'm tempted with my demons but I seem to hang in there. I haven't been with a woman for a few months now but I do drink a little. No drugs, no porn. I'm trying to keep myself straight.