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Got a new monster on my rear. Called my refill in on Friday, knowing that it takes them a few days to get their shit together to do it. Got called back that day, getting fussed at for calling it in too early..WTH..it takes at least a couple of days to get that done, and not to mention we had the three day weekend. I had to explain to the guy that I wasn't expecting a refill then, that I still had some, that I had called it in knowing that it would take a couple of days and all that. I mean, I wasn't expecting anything until Tuesday or Wednesday! I swear to God I can't wait for my insurance to finally kick in. I've finally said screw it, I'm going for surgery, even though I know it will be painful and may not keep the HS from coming back in that area. I'm just so tired of fighting my WHOLE body, I mean my armpits, my lady area, my thighs, my butt have all been breaking out like hell. And now I fear I may have one on my breast right between the girls, sorry but I gotta say it...HS fucking sucks monkey balls!!!
Now the doc has got me worried and scared to call back. Kinda like, if you call back and ask them what's up, you're gonna get looked at like some junkie or something. God how I hate having to take pain meds for this shit! But what the hell is a person to do, when your so fucked up that just to be able to get your kids up and off to school, you have to wake up 30 mins before time for them to get up, just so you can take something for the pain, down a cup of coffee (of which I am no fan, but it does helps shake some of the grogginess out of the head) and prepare oneself for the challenges of getting two special needs kids ready for school?
I'm so frustrated right now words can't really do it justice. I know in a day or so I'll need more pain meds and I'm scared their gonna fuck with me because of it.
Now the doc has got me worried and scared to call back. Kinda like, if you call back and ask them what's up, you're gonna get looked at like some junkie or something. God how I hate having to take pain meds for this shit! But what the hell is a person to do, when your so fucked up that just to be able to get your kids up and off to school, you have to wake up 30 mins before time for them to get up, just so you can take something for the pain, down a cup of coffee (of which I am no fan, but it does helps shake some of the grogginess out of the head) and prepare oneself for the challenges of getting two special needs kids ready for school?
I'm so frustrated right now words can't really do it justice. I know in a day or so I'll need more pain meds and I'm scared their gonna fuck with me because of it.
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Yikes, what a mess! Luckily I have a pharmacy that if you call early they\'ll just refill it when it is finally coverable. Can sympathsize about the pain pills since I\'ve experienced that anxiety too. Had a doc who was treating me like an addict and it drove me crazy! As for not liking the coffee, I can\'t drink it if it is not \"doctored\", you might try tea, or energy shots. The energy shots taste as bad as coffee but at least u can shoot them!
Everything you do and have done make me want to call you \"WonderWoman\". I hope thru your pain you really know what a champion you are with everything you ARE ABLE to do in you life, while having a horridly bad case of HS. I think I could not be that strong, I would probably go to bed and stay there. I hope your husband helps you and gives you support? Love, C
I\'ve done the energy shots, they are not nearly as bad tasting as coffee..lol..Now I don\'t mind a cup of joe, but it has to be under certain circumstances, like a piece of Hot Fudge Sundae cake from Shoney\'s..lol..Stuffs just so rich!
Colleeniee, I wouldn\'t call myself WonderWoman..lol..I\'m just too hard headed (or stupid one..lol) to just give up, and having PTSD kinda helps..sorta..Kinda like the bed bug issue, if my PTSD had not kicked in I don\'t think I would have been able to get through clearing almost everything I own out of the house as quickly as I did. I have days where I feel if it were not for the PTSD and my being hyper vigiliant about my kids and their issues, I wouldn\'t be making it as far as I have for as long. So in a way, my tough past has steeled me to be able to take this on. Between my crappy net service and the HS (as of late) it has kept me from getting on as much as I would like, and that bugs me much.
As for the pain meds, unfortunately around here, Percocet is not something allowed to be called in, and I have to actually call it in at the drs office and go pick it up there, which makes it even more stressful. It\'s a bit of a pisser that my body has to choose to go on an HS \"bender\" not long after my doctor upped my mgs from 5 to 10. It\'s just never ending, but I\'m gonna keep on trying, as I was never taught to quit. Of course there were a LOT of things I was never taught but..lol..I\'m a smart cookie..I\'m figuring it out.. ^._^
I hope things are getting better for you. I know surgery really helped me I hope that they can really help you. You deserve a real break and I hope it comes soon! I am going to keep you in my prayers!