ill butt

Got a new monster on my rear. Called  my refill in on Friday, knowing  that it takes them a few days to get their shit together to do it. Got called back that day, getting fussed at for calling it in too early..WTH..it takes at least a couple of days to get that done, and not to mention we had the three day weekend. I had to explain to the guy that I wasn't expecting a refill then, that I still had some, that I had called it in knowing  that it would take a couple of days and all that. I mean, I wasn't expecting anything until Tuesday or Wednesday! I swear to God I can't wait for my insurance to finally kick in. I've finally said screw it, I'm going for surgery, even though I know it will be painful and may not keep the HS from coming back in that area. I'm just so tired of fighting my WHOLE body, I mean my armpits, my lady area, my thighs, my butt have all been breaking out like hell. And now I fear I may have one on my breast right between the girls, sorry but I gotta say it...HS fucking sucks monkey balls!!!
Now the doc has got me worried and scared to call back. Kinda like, if you call back and ask them what's up, you're gonna get looked at like some junkie or something. God how I hate having to take pain meds for this shit! But what the hell is a person to do, when your so fucked up that just to be able to get your kids up and off to school, you have to wake up 30 mins before time for them to get up, just so you can take something for the pain, down a cup of coffee (of which I am no fan, but it does helps shake some of the grogginess out of the head) and prepare oneself for the challenges of getting two special needs kids ready for school?
I'm so frustrated right now words can't really do it justice. I know in a day or so I'll need more pain meds and I'm scared their gonna fuck with me because of it.