Ignoring the heart

Today has been an interesting day to say the least.  I woke up this morning and thought, ill send an encouraging word to my wife and see what she says.  She responded 10 hours later saying "ok"  I text back asking y she waited until now to say anything, (probably laying on her back) but she responded, when i do you always keep going. 
Well i have had a lot of pep talks all day. I would like my heart to feel love again but i dont think i can go there with her. she is not in the least sorry for anything she has done.
I deserve better than that.  I wouldnt have done anything even remotely similar.  So tonight I am going to try and get my head on straight.  I know that the emotions will come when least expected, but I will get through this. I will be a good daddy to my girl and I will not let this mistake I made 6 years ago keep me down.
Lol, now to keep this thought process going.