If it weren't for my kids

I have really been thinking about things. Thinking about what I put up with I'm my relationships what I deal with just trying to get threw the day to be somewhat social, all this has made me realize the only reason at all I'm still around is for my kids because I don't want to hurt them by them not having a mother. They are the only reason I try at all. Because even on my meds I feel horrible everyday it's always something. I can't stand looking at my self because when I see my self I see someone else someone empty someone so ugly whit nothing to give someone that no one wants. But I don't ever want them to have to know what it feels like to not have a mother.