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I really have no faith at all..... IF there was a God why would they put some family through this much pain and heartbreaking agony over and over and over again?
Seriously!!! Who thinks this is some sick joke. How many people's hearts have you torn to pieces by allowing the good and young to die? You have destroyed mine and how am I meant to fix it? I can not fix it. I can baindaid it up with a lovely little pill... How much more problems will that create?
Thank you for the utter gut wrenching pain that I wake to everyday.
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Thanks for your reply to my post. I'm without a mom as well, so I can empathize with your pain. I believe in God, but I can certainly relate to your post as I've been very angry with the pain that my mother's death has caused me. I've actually blamed God for it. I can't pretend to understand His ways or to know His purpose in allowing it. I don't have much family support so I have to deal with this alone. I don't think my answer will be found in a pill so I'm not going to take drugs to deal with it.
All I can hope is that folks like us who are missing a loved one will someday find peace. I believe you said you have a 6 year old daughter, you are very blessed to have her.
Bebe,
Yes i do however feel so distant from her. I am feeling very alone in this world. Even when Mum was going through her cancer crud she would still listen and comfort me through my issues. One night i was texting her about how i dont have anything for dinner then her replying back solutions. I thought seriously you are going through hell and you still help me. She thanked me for the distraction. I watch her name on my phone list go further down as there is no more conversations. Im so angry at this world. Too much pain.
Hugs to you
Sam x