idk anymore

Idk wtf to do anymore this lifestyle ive been living has taken its toll.I feel like im going nowhere im life and having these secrets suck too. Last november I was with a girl who was bipolar and a slut she stayed for 2 weeks with me. She ended up breaking up with me after she went home and my dumbass told my neighbor idgaf if he fucked her when I was high and not thinking . He went down to see her and Now im worried about if his wife finds out. I hardly get anything done being off meds and its only getting harder for me due to no job a dog, and always having kids to watch that are my neighbors kids and having to deal with my brother and our friend drinking every night. I always get into pointless arguments with my brother. I hate dealing with beer bottles.trash and lack of responsibility and communication .constant stress and disrespectfullnes. I feel like nothing is getting better. fuck this.