Idk

sometimes I feel like I'm ...idk. That I've been put here as a vessel for everyone. To accommodate the ways of things and for nothing else. To help people maintain or achieve the lives that they need or want to lead.

idk. Sometimes. More and more times nowadays. It sucks. And I'm getting more and more tired of it. I'm tired of it. 

I used to respect myself. There was a time when I did. Right now I feel like I've given too much of it that I don't have anything left for it anymore and it sucks. It makes me distrust every thing and everyone that keeps insisting on my self worth and my deserving of something more. I mean lol even a doctor is in it only in exchange for a salary so...

idk. But it sucks