I would love to talk to my Mom about this...
but all I get whenever I try to talk about the infertility, premature ovarian failure I get a canned response of "don't worry, think positive, God is good".
Ok, I know all of that is sound advice, but every fuckin' time? Its a chore to find someone to talk to about this outside of Dailystrength.
I carry this like a huge secret or a burden that I should be ashamed of. I hate having this feeling like this situation is something I could have prevented. I want someone to talk to and I would love that to be my Mom. I am close to her, very close, but for some reason I cannot talk to her comfortably about sex, nor this subject.
These are huge subjects for me. The only person I can talk to this about is the hubby and both of us need other outlets besides ourselves. Its like recycling the same air on an aircraft, after some time, you need fresh air and that's what we're experiencing.
I'm on Lupron (20cc) daily until Monday, then its 10cc and a 2mg Estrace. I hope the Estrace does not put a kink in my day by making me sleepy. I've never taken them before. We'll see.
I'm still not sure I should even slide the "Get pregnant by 2011" bar at all.
I want to go to sleep, I just got my period (its the first day) and I slept for 3 hours after I watched M. Butterfly (odd movie). I was bitchy and annoyed for most of the day. I tried to control my anger and hopefully it worked well. I've gone through 5 pads today (I use the always Infinity...love them). I have a client date tomorrow (12 dishes including dessert). I need to really find my energy reserve.
I'm starving right now and I can't get enough selzer. Its always an odd craving when I'm having my period. I'm trying to be positive. I will try harder. You get out what you put in right?
Ok, I know all of that is sound advice, but every fuckin' time? Its a chore to find someone to talk to about this outside of Dailystrength.
I carry this like a huge secret or a burden that I should be ashamed of. I hate having this feeling like this situation is something I could have prevented. I want someone to talk to and I would love that to be my Mom. I am close to her, very close, but for some reason I cannot talk to her comfortably about sex, nor this subject.
These are huge subjects for me. The only person I can talk to this about is the hubby and both of us need other outlets besides ourselves. Its like recycling the same air on an aircraft, after some time, you need fresh air and that's what we're experiencing.
I'm on Lupron (20cc) daily until Monday, then its 10cc and a 2mg Estrace. I hope the Estrace does not put a kink in my day by making me sleepy. I've never taken them before. We'll see.
I'm still not sure I should even slide the "Get pregnant by 2011" bar at all.
I want to go to sleep, I just got my period (its the first day) and I slept for 3 hours after I watched M. Butterfly (odd movie). I was bitchy and annoyed for most of the day. I tried to control my anger and hopefully it worked well. I've gone through 5 pads today (I use the always Infinity...love them). I have a client date tomorrow (12 dishes including dessert). I need to really find my energy reserve.
I'm starving right now and I can't get enough selzer. Its always an odd craving when I'm having my period. I'm trying to be positive. I will try harder. You get out what you put in right?
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