I would love to just realx and enjoy life......

I thought when I divorced that I could leave the old me behind. That scared anxious tired lady that felt so much on her shoulders daily. After meeting with my councilor yesterday and him wanting to diagnose me with BWS (battered women syndrome).  I feel like a prisoner to these feelings. I know it doesn't define me but rather exsplains how I react to certain times and issues that may come up. Still I cant help but think that I am forever stuck in the past somehow.
I am a strong person, this much I know. If I wasn't I would still be miserable in my marriage that only served purpose for one person......him.
I just have to remain strong and learn how to deal with all that he and his behaviors have inflicted on my soul.
I have faith that the lord will help me through and that I can remain strong and help my child learn how to cope as well. He is my real concern. Such an amazing child, smart, has over come all his health issues he was born with. And such an amazing sweet soul. I don't want that to change........please lord help me keep him in his own heart of who he is. Please