I wonder....

I wonder if I'm doing the right thing being on here.  I see the messages of support or comments to my journal with advice and support and I just start bawling.  Maybe in the fact I know everyone is right and also that they are going thru the same hell on earth I am.  I don't know if it's a good thing or not.  I have made some wonderful friends on here and I have not gotten ANY negative feedback.  I just feel I'm dumping and not moving forward, and don't know how to do that.  It does not help I'm pretty sure they make fun of me or look for things to "get on me" and the fact he's still in the house and I have to maintain my face and smile for the children when in fact I just want to curl up in a ball and die.  Who will ever want a 40 year old with 2 small kids...they are baggage to most.  I wouldn't even know where to meet people.  I'm trying to make new friends but I cannot even do that.  So again, I hope I'm doing the right thing being on here...I think so but is it normal to cry so much.  I wish the counsellor could just hypnotize me into not caring but I do.