I wish things would help me now

Im reflecting on my life and I feel I have NO choice but to clean the whole house tomorrow no matter the pain I feel I won't have this nasty MONKEY off my back! I hope in the process something happens something John can't deny something he can't say was an excuse. Evanescene the song Breathe No More describes me to a T. Im done for now I will post more later I got some house work to do............