I will be strong
I have a learning disability. Its something that shouldnt be taken as a cruel joke and even though its not like cancer or any other illiness, it will never go away. For as long as i can remember i've been struggling with it. In grade school and in high school, i wasnt in alot of regular classes, most of them were special ed and i'm glad i got the extra help, it has helped me and i dont regret it but I feel like i havent learned as much as my classmates. I did take the regular history classes, and the required courses but everything else was special ed. I had it easy . I remember when they would post the kids who made the honor role and the AB honor role, i would wonder if my name was on the list, so i checked.....my name was not on either list. When there was a test in a certain class, didnt take it with my class, i had to go a special ed teacher and take it there. I cant do certain things, right now i'm learning to cook, i'm learning to do my laundry, i dont have my license, admitting this is not easy and i feel that i can talk about it on this support group. Thats what i need. When people talk to me about driving, i try to hide the fact i dont. Its not easy, i'm scared people will make fun of me, that they will give me a lecture saying i'm old enough to do this by now, its not that i dont want to, its the fact i cant. My brain cant process things sometimes. At my summer job, if i'm given a task, five minutes later i'll forget where to put this or that and i have to repeat the question, its embarassing. I'm going back to school and some of my friends are already graduating. My mom says its doesnt matter, what matters is i'm going back. I'm rejoicing that when i'm going back which is this fall, i am joining my little sister. her first year in college. I'm struggling with the fact i have to please people, i have to make sure i'm doing the things they expect me to or else they will be dissapointed. I'm talking with my counselor about it and shes helping me one step at a time. Maybe some day i can tell my family and friends, teachers that i cant do certain things.