I will be ok
Just for today, I will be ok, not great, not wonderful, just ok. I am only one person, I cant do everthing. I know I am tired an over weight. I know I dont look my best today. I am just so,so. I know I dont like me. I asked my husband if he loved me, he said yes. But I want him to say I love you first. I want to be told by him that I am beautiful. I dont think he can. Thats what saddens me.. He used to look at me with love, but now hey, I'mIjust there. I am always here. Afraid to go anywhere without taking anxiety meds, I have to take it to even go to my moms. I couldnt ask my sister to go there, OH NO, it would interfere with her partying. I am tired. I want to sleep for days. No one else will help. I need help. I need attention, Most of all, I need Love. Dose this make any sense? I am just so tired physically.
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Just believe you are beautiful, you have a lot to offer. I understand about the anxiety, it almost takes everything I have just to get myself out the door to go to the store. I find once I\'m out, I feel better. Just be kind to yourself and know that you are moving forward, even if it doesn\'t seem like much, you are. I give you big (((Hugs)))
You are quite pretty, so i think maybe you\'re just feeling down? Men are useless, they get comfortable. They think the fact that they haven\'t left or found someone else should be as clear as a bell to you, a loud claxon \'i love you\' ringing across the rooftops. they don\'t get it that you don\'t see it. Bloody men. :D
Take time out. Do the bare minimum. Soak up the sun. Have a holiday! If you can\'t have one away from your life, just go to bed and read. Roster the rest of them to cook and clean and vacuum, they\'re not cripples.
You\'re there to teach them independence, not slave to death for them. :p Go get a good book and do nothing all day. or a good movie. :) I really liked \'into the woods\'. xx