I wish...

I wish that I had realized that there was medication that could help me with anxiety to this degree decades ago. I'm calmer now that I have ever been, and at only 1/2 of the full dose. I wish that I could have been a better planner in my past, then I would not have gotton so far into this pit that I'm in now.  I wish that I had someone in my life to share these things with that would have the patience needed to actually deal with me. It can be tough, dealing with a person that has a nature like mine. I panic easily, freak out sometimes, and am non-functional at others.  I wish that I had made better choices during my life, and hope that I make better ones going forward. Along with all the deaths in my family and the loss of my grandchildren to foster care/adoption, I've had to deal with some financial troubles that have been devistating. I wish that I had seen how bad an option buying this property was and chosen one of the other paths open to me. There were many, and this was the least favorable of all of them.  I wish that in the future I can make clearer decisions, based upon more facts, and find a way to be happy.