I went to the gym to swim...
Of all the things I have not done is exercise much and wanted to swim today. It was beautiful outside and a heated pool. After fifteen min. I was exhausted, but after not exercising through this ordeal it was no wonder, right? Sent a letter to my son and hope it was received well. Haven't heard yet, although it was to keep my dignity in tact and not to be appologising for every little thing. I love him and related this allot, but want to know that I am accepted for me, not just a parent, a person. Wait and see, but not with much big hope. I just hope that this depression that has kept me from wanting to take care of myself never re-enters into my life. I can't take the divorce of these last two children very well anymore. I am too old and in chronic pain to deal with all that nonsense. That is it for now. and hope I sleep tonight. Would be nice for a change.
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I have a terrible time sleeping too. I hope the warm swim helped you.
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I found myself up at the middle of the night once again. Even the swim didn\'t do it, but I just want to give it time, since this depression has lifted. Boy, that was just the pits. I sure hope your\' sleep is getting better. Do you take anything for it? I use something now and then, but I am just so not a good sleeper, ever since I had the fourth child. Be well and thanks Paws4it Love your name there. Deb
I am going to commit to writing my story and just for myself to get the junk out and let it burn to the floor of cement outside. I have heard that works wonders, so that is a plan I have. I don\'t have thoughts during the night, I just don\'t sleep good. Any ideas? Thanks
No I dont sleep. My nitemears have eased, but still the sleep escapes me.
Writing does help. Write away!
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Thank you Paws4it, I did sleep five hours and it was pleasant to wake from a wonderful dream and not a nightmare. Thank you so much and yes, writing is helping me allot.
I got 5 hours last nite!!! That does not happen a lot!