I went to an afternoon meeting

After wasting a couple of days wallowing in grief and self pity, i finally forced myself to get to a meeting. I wasn't gonna let anyone or anything get in my way, i just went. And what an incredible feeling i found by attending this particular meeting. One guy said exactly what i needed to hear. For the first time in my life i can see the god of my understanding reaching out for me. As he talked, i cried. I didn't care what anyone thought. I was so moved by his words i couldn't help it. I found hope again. I have hope that , yes, there is more to life than this! What i'm going through will pass and eventually i will experience a spiritual awakening which will enable me to live the kind of fullfilling life i dream of! Of coarse i want to be successful, who doesn't, but i dream of being able to savor every day, every experience.... i dream of being fully content and satisfied within myself, of being able to see as much beauty as i possibly can... to create a beautiful life full of warm memories i can reminisce about with my great-great grandchildren... i just want to enjoy life to the fullest and i cherish these brief but awesome moments when i am IN THE MOMENT!!