I was molested...
From the time I was little I was touched, and molested, raped. Im adopted. And my brothers all at some point had sex with me....when I was younger they would touch me trying to go inside me. I constantly was always thinking I was pregnant growing up because one brother kept forcing me to have sex with him, if i said no...he would beg and not leave till I at least put it in my mouth. This lasted till my Senior year in high school. I never wanted them to get into trouble so I never told a soul till now. Im not suicidal. Im not crying everyday. Ive put it behind me and I seem to block some of it out. Ive forgiven them. I often even wonder if I made it all up. Now that I see how good they are with their kids. Is there something wrong with me that I can just forgive them and act like it never happen???
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If I may offer a genuine suggestion, Look for SIA (survivors of incest anonymous) meetings near you. It's a great safe place where you can meet other survivors and talk about your stituation openly and it's an outlet for you to talk & heal. I personally felt connected and like I could relate to other survivors. Makes me feel like I'm not crazy or alone for feeling what I feel sometimes. If you have the opportunity and if available give it a shot and see how it goes. You're worthy of living life and worthy of recovery.