I was ashamed

I am terribly sorry I haven't been updating any of my friends on my progress. It's safe to say I haven't really made any. I haven't lose any weight, but thankful I haven't gained any either. I am working really hard though just to maintain right now, and taking baby steps into losing the actually weight needed. It's been tough. My ankle still hasn't fully healed from the sprain. I am fairly sure that it's because of my weight, and the pressure I put on it everyday. I will heal!
As far as life is concerned; I am enrolling into community college, and hopefully I can make good grades, and still have enough time to focus on losing the  80lbs I would like to lose. AS well as toning, and getting the body that I should have for a person my age(18). I really don't want to be the fat kid in class that everyone stays away from based on my looks. I want to be the normal kid they stay away from because I want them to stay away from me, lol! Being as fat as I am at my age; for as long as I have been, and having this acne; It's made you want to stay away from people and I've grown to where I want to be by myself.
I am so sorry this don't make that much sense. Hope everyone has a great day and night!